Foreword

I’ve finally got my first album out there for other people to listen to, and when you now hold it in your hands, I really do hope you will enjoy it. Or at least some of it.

Since this is my first album it’s quite a big deal for me, mainly cause I’ve been thinking, planning and discussing it for so long, but never really been able to pull it off.

I want to thank Robert Wahlström for pushing me to believe my music is worth something to others than myself. He was the one to start it all.

Thank you Dean Mollett, my amazing guitarist that nowdays always joins me on stage, for your great effort and your skills.

I wanna thank Karlijn Buwalda in Holland for lending me her beautiful voice on “You’re not allowed” and Erik Zwaag for helping out with the recording.

I also wanna thank Elinor Hansson, my lovely cousin for her beautiful background singing on “You’re still here” – the song I wrote to my father while he was fighting and loosing to cancer.

Thank you Micke Andersson that you with your sensual voice gave me back the lust to go through with “I’m so glad you came by”. I was ready to let the song go for a while.

Thank you Krister Dahlström for your classical guitar skills that put a fragile final touch to “Today I Am” which was a song difficult to both write and sing since it made me feel so exposed.

To all my fans that nagged me about a record, and that have enjoyed my music, I really, really do hope I can reach up to your expectations. I’m happy you believe in me and I’m so happy for your support. It means everything.

At last I wanna say that without my very passionate and hard working husband, this would probably not have happened for another 20 years. Thank you Thomas. I love you <3

Enjoy!

With loads of love

Malin

Pink Bubble

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

I could have guessed
that when you took my hand  
you’d lead me straight into trouble
and what a mess
it would be outside of my pink bubble
it’s you that I want
it’s you that I want

You’d keep me twisted in my mind
along with your fingers in my hair
and when they used to call me names
you were that burning flare
but it’s all over now
it’s all over now

But I still need you
to sometimes look at me
and I still need you
to get what I feel
I still need you
to know I exist for real
I still need you
I still need you

You brought me home everyday
at least that’s what I imagined
we were occupied kissing each other 
and I admired you in silence
in your hands I was completely lost
in your hands I was completely lost

But I still need you
to sometimes look at me
and I still need you
to get what I feel
I still need you
to know I exist for real
I still need you
I still need you

Malin Mavian: Vocals, Guitar.
Thomas Mavian: Bass, Synths, Drums.

Exhaled

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

Sorted chaos in a restless mind
sit next to me and rest for a while
hold my hand and let me sleep in your smile
let me breath in your soul for a while

You think you ain’t making a difference
at least you don’t know how much
but without you life goes wrong
and I cant be anyone

And if you think you’re not my all
I’m sorry, you are

We’re on the same bench, in the same park
we think the same things,
and wear the same mark
you and I, we are who we are
and I can feel your heart beat
when I reach out far

And if you think you’re not my all
I’m sorry, you are

Malin Mavian: Vocals, Guitar.

Infernos

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

Jesus loves you he said
“Then why...” are you
asking yourself 
“...is he still” in your bed
Jesus will forgive you
all your mistakes
but what did you offer him
and what did he take

Tie that rope around you
onto that tree
and the roots will ground you
into the sea
and by your side there will be
people like you
people that God lost
but found a way through

Fall in to the infernos of yours
hit the bottom and uncover the source
begging for mercy
it’s nothing but words
take a leap out to this world

You’ve been counting days
since you were born
one victim for every way
one way for each thorn
in this lingering colour
you will be blessed
and that it’s darker than black
who could have guessed

Fall in to the infernos of yours
hit the bottom and uncover the source
begging for mercy
it’s nothing but words
take a leap out to this world

Malin Mavian: Vocals, Guitar.
Thomas Mavian: Digital Trumpet.

I’m So Glad You Came By

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

He lifted up his hat 
and said “How do you do?”
She smiled right back to him and thought
he already knew
Thanks I love this day
and still it’s getting better
The moment you walked into this room
I started to shiver

And I’m so glad you came by
I’m so glad you came by

I could play hard to get
and do as I usually do
but it would feel so wrong to waste time
that I can spend with you
Let’s make some memories
to think about when we’re older
he pulled himself closer to her
kissed her neck and then her shoulder

And I’m so glad you came by
I’m so glad you came by

With a smile on her face
and a fast beating heart
a note in her hand 
and a number to call
a vision of him
still feeling his taste
she walked in a slow pace
six feet tall

And I’m so glad you came by
I’m so glad you came by

Malin Mavian: Lead Vocals, Acoustic Guitar.
Micke Andersson: Lead Vocals.
Dean Mollett: Electric Guitar.
Thomas Mavian: Piano, Bass, Drums.

You’re Not Allowed

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

You’re not allowed to do me wrong
you’re not allowed to carry on making mistakes
you’re not the one I’d like to bring home
what are you taking me for
what are you taking me for

You’re not the one to make me whole
you’re not one of my everlasting dream goals
you’re not the prince of my dreams
but I’m blind it seems
I’m so blind it seems

I don’t want you to pour me my tea
I don’t want you to sit next to me
I don’t want you to comment on my hair
and I don’t want you to be near me

I don’t want you to affect my day
and I don’t want you to have a say
I don’t want you to invade my dreams
but I don’t have a choice it seems
I don’t have a choice it seems

You’re not allowed to make me shake
you’re not allowed to make me faint and fall
you’re not allowed to give what I take
you’re not allowed to be my all 

You’re not allowed to make me crave
and you’re not allowed to let me stay on flow
but what am I supposed to say
when you, make me love you so
when you, make me love you so
when you, make me love you so

When you, make me love you so

Malin Mavian: Lead Vocals, Guitar.
Karlijn Buwalda: Backing Vocals.

Complete

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian & Thomas Mavian.

Two crows not fighting over a piece of bread
no permissions granted today
and all bounds are broken now cause he’s dead
and all the crossroads are wiped out
there’s no way for you to get complete
there’s no way for you to get complete

A man stopped his car
so I could cross the street
he smiled at me through the windshield
and right into me
the sky held no clouds
no rain or mist in sight
something is wrong
nothing feels right
for me to get complete
for me to get complete

Battles lost before they even begun
a spot in the ground is spared for you
you can’t fight the devils own demons
but they will make sure that you
will see that you won’t get complete
you’ll see that you won’t get complete
will see that you won’t get complete
will see that you won’t get complete

Malin Mavian: Vocals.
Thomas Mavian: Synths, Drums, Bass, Body Percussion.

Another Day In This Home

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

Numbered tarmac within a square
grayhounds barking up the path
don’t wanna soak my feet inside those rubber boots
and leave it just like that

Dirt on the knees and no one dares
to dust it off with their hands
but I can swear I saw someone do it
and get a smile right back 

It is another day in this home
someone left it yesterday
and someone will soon
It is another day going to an end
bless this life that we lend
and say goodbye to your friend

Happy birthdaycards on a pile
“Hope you’re ok, take care”
black and white photos on someones wall 
if you look closer, we’re all there

To tired to mind any wrongs
it doesn’t matter, it tastes the same
knows the day that you were born
but just can’t remember your name

It is another day in this home
someone left it yesterday
and someone will soon
It is another day going to an end
bless this life that we lend
and say goodbye to your friend

Malin Mavian: Vocals.
Thomas Mavian: Piano.

You’re Still Here

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

This is all a story of my mind
you fight the day and leave the night behind
every breath is now split in half 
and two arms has turned to one
I’m so impressed by 
all the things you’ve done
all those times you helped me 
through someone
I’m so impressed by who you are
I’m so impressed by who you are

You’re still here and you’ll always be
you made me be someone I wanna be
you’re still here and you’ll always be
I’m sorry if I hurt you now
but this is how I feel
this is how I feel

You saved your strength
for one last day and night
you held through one last party
to say goodbye
it took me four days to realise
I got it that very day you died
I can spend the rest of my life
try to figure out why
such a big part of me also died 
when we watched you take your final sigh

You’re still here and you’ll always be
you made me be someone I wanna be
you’re still here and you’ll always be
I’m sorry if I hurt you now
but this is how I feel
this is how I feel

You spoke about the tunnel
the light and the peace
that’s what’s holding me up now
when I get overwhelmed by grief
I’m so grateful for all the things we had
but never the less
I’ll always miss you dad 

This song is dedicated in loving memory of Nils-Inge Olsson.

Malin Mavian: Lead Vocals, Electric Guitar. 
Dean Mollett: Acoustic Guitar.
Elinor Hansson: Backing Vocals.
Thomas Mavian: Bass, Electric Guitar, Drums.

I’m Happy As I Am

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

Just another cup of coffee
next to a magazine
that shows perfect life stories
in which I’m never in

Sophisticated rooms
with expensive glass
and porcelain from dynasties
I’ve got nothing of that

I get my coat and take a walk
passing people and hear them talk
about fortunes and about fame
and they all dream about the same, thing

But I, I’m happy as I am
yes of course I can
think about a few things
I’d like to have
but I’m happy as I am

Cars and house and another place
the advertising says 
gotta earn more then you make
and sometimes even more then that

Take a loan and fly to rome
for a weekend or two
cause you can’t be happy where you are
unless you’ve seen that  too

But I, I’m happy as I am
yes of course I can
think about a few things
I’d like to have
but I’m happy as I am

I’m happy as I am
I’m happy as I am

Malin Mavian: Vocals.
Thomas Mavian: Bass, Electric Piano.

In This State Of Mind

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

I heard silence fall
and saw it crash to the floor
shatter into a thousand pieces
unbreakable no more

I saw drops of water rinse
making my skin sore
but kept my lipstick untouched,
even though I’m
unbreakable no more

I could wait for a while
for someone kind
but no one could call me
in this state of mind

Eleven eyes are looking at me
scanning through my bones
they asked about who wrote my lines
and I said they’re my own

I could wait for a while
for someone kind
but no one could call me
in this state of mind

Malin Mavian: Vocals, Guitar.
Thomas Mavian: Synths, Bass, Drums.

Today I Am

Music and lyrics: Malin Mavian.

Today I am 
all that you want
expose your dream
and I’ll be everything
and I’ll do my best
to ease the weight on your chest

Cause today I am
broken and shattered
and all this pain in my body
makes me no one that matters
so I need you to need me too
I can be important through you

Today I barely am
I’m someone that hides
it’s a bit easier I think
to stay behind happy smiles
and while the veins in my body aches
the muscles in my body breaks
again I’m loosing one more day
and I fall down on my knees to say

Please let me be today
let me be without pain
I’m so tired of being tired
of feeling down and drained

Today I am 
all that you need
today I am
cause you make me

Malin Mavian: Vocals, Guitar.
Krister Dahlström: Concert Guitar.
Thomas Mavian: Bass, Percussion.

Crowded Isolation



1. Pink Bubble 4:33
2. Exhaled 2:49
3. Infernos 4:31
4. I’m So Glad You Came By 3:26
5. You’re Not Allowed 2:23
6. Complete 3:20
7. Another Day In This Home 3:28
8. You’re Still Here 3:42
9. I’m Happy As I Am 2:58
10. In This State Of Mind 4:57
11. Today I Am 3:19